So here we are. Almost at the end of another year. The Christmas Tree is up and our house is a hive of activity with all of my little people home. I feel complete, whole and like everything is how it is supposed to be. Lee will finish up work for the year too soon and we will have some down time.
It's funny how we are all searching for balance and trying to slow down. I feel that each day when I open my eyes I am full steam ahead. And it's ok. I do feel tired most days but I have a thirst for life. I am a doer. And I believe it is such a good way to be. Sure, my kids do my head in most days and I would be lying if I said I didn't stress out or get myself flustered. The key to it all is, taking a little time just to stop and reflect. For me, this blog helps tremendously. In fact, each and every post I write on Social Media and every interaction I have with you all is a form of therapy for me. I can be exhausted and feel like I don't have the energy to get out there and be my pumped up, happy self in a session, but.... something happens when I arrive. I don't quite know how to describe it. Perhaps it's like meditation. But when I arrive at that session and start clicking that shutter all the feelings of nervousness, exhaustion or whatever it was on my mind that day leave me and I am in my zone.
So I am 34 years old now, 35 soon and I believe this is where I am meant to be. I say it a lot and it is because it's true. Throughout this year I have had ups and downs in my photography. Constantly wondering if my art is appreciated. Asking myself is it good enough? Are my clients happy? The list goes on. And then on days like today where I take the time to sit and go through only some of the work I have managed to produce this year and I can't wipe the smile off my face. Today I stared at each and every one of these images and slightly tilted my head to the side and just soaked them in.
You know by now that I am all about the feels. If it shifts something inside and makes you feel then it's a damn good thing. I am so grateful for all of your support and I want to thank every single one of you that laughed at my jokes, applauded my clumsiness or constant foot in mouth disorder I seem to have. Thank you for trusting me with your memories. Thank you for allowing me to quietly get to you know your children and find that little something that makes them spark just at the right time so I get all of their personality in one image. I can honestly say I love it all.
I also want to give a shout out to a few special photographers - you know who you are. You guys have been so supportive and the mentoring you have provided me has taken me to the next level. This year I have surprised myself! I am so proud of the things I have learnt and achieved and so pumped to see where 2019 will take me.
Who's coming with me?