When I turned 18 my dad did the standard 'dad speech' as they all do. To be honest, I don't really remember a whole lot from that night but one thing he did say was 'she's been down a bit of a dirt track and it got a bit rocky, but I'm pretty sure we've got her back on the bitumen'. I have no idea why this little Aussie bushy phrase has stuck with me. Now to you this probably seems weird as to why I would start this post off with this. Read a little further and hopefully what I am trying to say will make sense in the end.
You see to me, life is one long ass journey on a hell of an ever changing, all terrain road. Stuff happens. Good stuff, mediocre stuff, bad stuff, sad stuff, exciting stuff, draining stuff, emotional stuff... just lots of different stuff! And, it's how we deal with this stuff that makes us who we are and in this case, the type of Mother we are. It teaches us how to overcome obstacles and how to react in different situations even if we feel like crawling in to a big black hole and disappearing at times.
I never used to like hearing 'everything happens for a reason'. I used to think it was a copout. Why would my mother dying happen for a reason? Like really? But, it's funny how as we grow older and wiser and move through challenging situations our outlook so too adapts. Lately I've watched some pretty amazing people go through some pretty shitty times. It's raw. It's real. And it's hard. But they're doing it. Each and every day when they wake up and their feet hit that floor and they put one foot in front of the other, they're doing it. Life. It really baffles me sometime's how strong human's are. And I'm sorry guys, but us mum's just like to kick it up a notch. When we have these little people to tend to it just drives us beyond!
I guess what I'm trying to say is this. If you are reading this then you know who you are. I want you to know that I am proud of you. I'm also here for you. You are all surrounded by people, one great big tribe that will pick you up when you are feeling like you need it. And, even though you are on that dirt track and you've been swerving trying not to lose control of the wheel. The bitumen is in sight.
Big love xxx